1/7/11

1/7/11
Music: Florence and the Machine - "Kiss with a Fist"

Woke up at 1:41pm-
"im sorry, Rehearsal ran long.. Can I call you tonight after work?"

Went back to sleep.

6:34pm-
I have slept. All. Day.

12:17am-
"you smell like bacon...."
-Girl to Austin

1:34am-
On the way home a man stopped Sherrie and I on the subway platform to tell Sherrie how beautiful she was. And then proceeded to sing a song about her.
It was pretty good.

1:36am-
In the train he started singing another funny song. Things like:
"if that young man isn't you're boyfriend, my number is...."
Sang "ever had a six foot black man." stopped singing and said "she's like 'hell NO I haven't!' haha!"
Then kept singing "you know what they say, once you go black, you won't go back..! And once you go white....." Stopped singing and said "see, you thought I left you brothers out."
Continued singing: "once you go white.... you won't ever have bad credit..!"

3:54am-
Said goodnight to Sherrie for the last time.
Just made myself a giant plate of fries and tater tots. Sitting down to watch It's Always Sunny.

1/6/11

I was talking intently with someone the other day and after explaining why people act a certain way because of how and what they think other people think of them, she stopped me and asked "are you always so analytical??"
That caught me off guard.

Noun 1. analytic thinking - the abstract separation of a whole into its constituent parts in order to study the parts and their relations.

I had no idea.


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1/6/11
Music: FUN - "Be Calm"

4:18pm-
Matt tells us that weird things have been happening. He went and got baptized the other day "and while the guy was standing there saying the prayer, i swear it felt like someone was holding my calves. Pulling me towards the ground. It hurt. And afterward it was like.. i felt lighter.

5:30pm-
Stacy telling Austin and i what kind of girls we're attracted to:
"Austin likes very angular faces; sharp chin and jaw. Zane like girls who look like cherubs."

10:35pm-
At an expensive Mexican place in SoHo. You can tell its "fancy" when there's only 12 things on the menu and the cheapest one is $24.
"My new years resolution was to 'make friends'. It's only been 5 days and look where I am!"

2:18am-
Hot. Cold. Hot. And then all the bumps and stopping and going....
Sometimes taxis make me nauseous.

3:04am-
On the way home i gave a homeless man a dollar. Sometimes you just feel like being nice..!

1/5/11

1/5/11
Listening to: "Flightless Bird" - Iron and Wine



1:37pm-
Text from Austin:
"hey buddy, i dont think anyone is going to the studio today."
"good. im so happy about that."
"me too."

3:18pm-
The four of us (me, Shay, Sherrie, Jasmin) arrive at Allye's apartment.
[She's an old friend from Texas who was in the TJC nutcracker with us about 10 years ago. Shay just happened to run into her in the subway not to long ago.]
I have bags under my eyes.
Shes making coffee.

4:16pm-
Allye's roommate comes home for a minute.
Allye- "...sometimes I hide from my roommate around the apartment."

4:40pm-
"whooops!!"
*CRASH!!*
We look over and Allye's roommate, Noreen, isnt sitting at the table anymore...
She just.. fell over...?

4:49pm-
Noreen looks up at Allye's conversation:
"are you talking about the half cupcake idea??"

5:58pm-
Noreen is looking for her keys.
Allye yells "did you guys just see that!!?! She pulled her keys outta the fridge!!?"

6:06pm-
"..and this is my gingerbred house. I put christmas lights inside so when you turn em on it looks like someone's home"
-Allye

7:14pm-
"I'll come home and see the tv on and a glass of wine on the table still sloshing back and forth.. thats how i know shes somewhere around here. Hiding."
-Noreen

11:23pm-
Jasmin: "Cherry..?! uh.. i wish MY name was a fruit."

The 8 of us are back at Allye's house. at
3:11am-
we had started four movies before putting on American Beauty and leaving it.

4:50am-
Austin to me: "Oh, man.. do NOT look at the time. How can we get out of going to the studio tomorrow..."

5:10am-
Me to Austin: "You staying at my house really changes our level of friendship. Just dont tell Stacy."

5:34am-
Austin sits down on the couch next to me and hands me half his bagel.
"YOU GUYS MATCH!!"
I lent him a pair of scrubs to sleep in and looked over to see we were also both wearing a green t shirt.
"Damn. Dont tell Stacy."

1/4/11

1/4/11
listening to: Sam Sparro

9:30am-
Alarm.
I'm playing that '10 more minutes' game. That game where you pretend 10 more minutes of sleep is gonna be helpful is some way but really you know if you're just playing it you've already lost.

11:28am-
Talking with Austin about yet another short film idea.
A 'the man who loved flowers' triggered idea.

1:41pm-
Currently sitting in an audio booth talking out the "Never Gonna Give You Up' lyrics. Learning how to do Voice Over recordings.

7:41pm-
Shay thought since no one was gonna be home it would be a good idea to just not lock the door to our apartment.
In New York city.
In Spanish Harlem.
Buh...?!

7:54pm-
Came home and noticed the apartment was noticeably cleaner...!

9:02pm-
"sorry, Jasmin, that it's so messy here. But, you should have seen it yesterday....!"
-Shay, bringing Sherrie and Jasmin home.

11 something..?-
Shay left to go take care of some loose ends....

1:21am-
"here... Know what Jolly Ranchers are...!?"
-Zane (a joke)
"Yes. I know what they are. ....I've just never had one.." -Jasmin (being serious)
"WHHAAATT!??!!"

2:40am-
Roof break. To dark for pictures..

3:01am-
"Hello."
"Hey, can you come down and pay for my cab.."
"Yeah. Just a sec."

5:44am-
"shay... can you write something down for me..?
k.. write 'austins giant script'.... and 'peephole bullseye'. thanks. gdnight.."

6:38am-
I woke up to a quiet television and a flickering candle with vivid memories of brutal dreams...

(((we were all at my texas house (but not our real house) having some kind of party. the duprees and friends of the family were all there.
i was wearing my hunting cap.
i fell asleep and was sleep walking and when i woke up i told my mom and weston what had happened and why i ended up in the shed:

(((the party was going on outside too and i walked out the backdoor and met a redheaded girl, dressed very conservatively and goody-two-shoes like. her grandma was standing near by, so i said something pleasant that the grandma would over hear. she wanted to go to a room but i said it'd be more fun if we we stayed close to the party. more... risky. we snuck off to a shed- dark and dusty but still somewhat attached to the party.
i lifted her up on a chair in the shed.
she was wearing a green skirt.
i knew it was a dream.))))

I woke up standing alone in the corner of the shed. and i wasnt confused as to WHY i was there. just how.

i was feeling weird and confused at this party.

a few more people came over - tiffany was one of them. i went right to her cause i was feeling strange and almost kissed her. but i stopped because jessie and weston and other people were around.

weird things were happening at this big party with a lot of my parents friends.

(((some group of people were trying to attack another group of people. we were harboring the latter.
one of the guys tried to attack me for not letting him into a room. i ran outside. he chased me and tried to hit me. i blocked and knocked him down.
i bent down and grabbed his head and just as i went to slam it into the sidewalk it changed into an empty bottle of grape juice.
i slammed it anyway.
bending it in my hand as i crushed it against the ground several times.
i finally stopped and dropped it and licked a little drop of grape juice that had splashed on my hand.
i felt bad.
sorry for what i did.)))

i woke up knowing it was all just a dream, but noticed that my mouth tasted like grape juice..)))

woke up. for real this time.
the candle is flickering.
my eyes burn.
Shay and Jasmin are talking in the other room.

1/3/11

1/3/11
Reading: Touching the Void -
Listening to : "When I'm Alone" by The Rifles (Pandora)

10:31am-
I like that I can wake up late to a text that my boss woke up late.
Convenient.

12:41pm-
"have a good day.
Be amazing."
Somehow encouraging.

2:13pm-
I'm really working on having a good handle on my time.
And time is such a hard thing to control. But it's going well. I feel like I'm doing alright so far.

7:17pm-
Heading home. Just realized I don't have keys to my apartment..

10:26pm-
Forgot Sherrie was only 20.
And not good at sneaking.

12:08am-
Austin directing Seans pose-
"More 'Jack Nickleson'... Ok.. Less."

1:41am-
Talking to lame people for so long really makes me miss my not lame friends.

2:29am-
Maybe a word of insight should be here at the bottom of each entry. Or somewhere... Or maybe just be recorded like everything else at the time that i think it..
I don't have time to find great quotes anymore, but sometimes I feel like there's more to be said about a day then the clips I've recorded..
So I can know that at 2:30 I was greatly appreciating the friends I have, and realizing, for real, how important being able to talk to a person is.
To be able to stand, and even ENJOY, their conversation.
A pretty face doesn't do much good when you're so bored you can barely keep you're eyes open.

3:27am-
I hope she doesn't take it the wrong way, but I mostly just want to sleep in my own bed....

1/2/11

1/2/11


12:24pm-
Matt (my boss at the studio) texts to say I can come in to get a head start on next week..
Mixed feelings.

1:42pm-
Back in the subway.
Ahh, New York.

5:46pm-
Austin and I talk at the studio about doing something tonight. Making friends is a new goal for both of us. I said I know a guy for that- so hopefully Shay can come out with us.

8:31pm-
Stop for eggs on the way to Austins house.
Egg sandwhich sounds so good right now...

12:24am-
At some place in Brooklyn 'making friends'.
Shay and Austin seem to be getting along really well. So that's good.
Almost tooo good....

1:41am-
Snack break/regroup back at Austins house. Plan phase two.

2:46am-
Austin- "...and you know, we just won't look. We can look a little.."

4:31am-
In for the night, we talk and laugh about everyone we met:
-Danger Zone-
(because she looked dangerous. Leather jacket and bad attitude.)
-Kathleen O'Hara
(because she looked like Kathleen O'Hara, the mom from home alone.) (how shay knew that name I have no idea.)
-The California Girls
(A group of obviously not intelligent people.)
-Jenny
-Tall Hat Girl
(Jennys friend.)

4:41am-
Austin almost slips when he bends down to dig thru his fridge.
He notices that I saw him.
That's his second time of showing signs of being... "sloppy".

1/1/11 The Beginning of a New Year

1/1/11


12:04pm-
Woke up.
I'm fully dressed in a bed with two other people in the Chelsea Hotel...




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"OK, Zane.
Its been a while since we've heard from you. Weve missed out on a couple of very full and somewhat exciting months.
You've finished your internship at that film studio and now you work there.
You've filmed a suicide scene that you and Austin wrote.
You've been hired for several film shoots including music videos, commercials, interviews and short films. You were even the assistant director for one i heard??? Learned a lot about scheduling and budgeting and what needs to happen on a set, i bet.
You had a good thanksgiving in New York, and a two week Christmas break in Texas, but now you're back in the city and a new year is starting.
Now what...?"

"Now I start the new year.
I've made some.. not 'New years resolutions' because those never last. More like, new life resolutions. That will start this year. Not because i need help keeping busy, i've been plenty busy. But to keep my brain moving. Someone said "your brain is a muscle, you know.. and just like other muscles if you dont use it and work it, it will shrivel and get weak."
I've known this.. but when it was said so plainly it really stuck.
So I've given myself some tasks that are solely to build brain strength by keeping it active:
- Restart my Minute Journal. [check]
- Read 1-2 books a month.
- Listen to two new bands/artists a month. (New music will be provided by Collin.)
- Keep up with NEW movies coming out and catch up on old classics i've never seen.
- Learn French.
- Make it a point to make FRIENDS. [FRIENDS - people i enjoy hanging out with for no ulterior reasons or purposes.]

It's kind of a lot. But I think its possible. Ya know, after a few months of practice anyway."

"I think its definitely possible. When do we start?"

"NOW!"

"Alright! Anything we need to know before we just jump into your life...?"



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At about 8:30 last night i got home from the airport, dragged my luggage up the stairs and knocked on the door expecting Shay to let me in.
A girl opened the door. Sherrie. Apparently she's from Atlanta and staying with us for 9 days to dance at some dance thing.
We were good friends within 4 hours.



1/1/11
Listening to: Kashmir - The Good Life
Reading: Touching the Void

“Every man should be born again on the first day of January. Start with a fresh page. Take up one hole more in the buckle if necessary, or let down one, according to circumstances; but on the first of January let every man gird himself once more, with his face to the front, and take no interest in the things that were and are past.”
-Henry Ward Beecher



3:34pm-
Sherrie and I came with Shay to his Nutcracker cast party.
Lounging in a huge apartment eating Thanksgiving food. And very thankful for it. We were very starving as if we didnt just gorge ourselves no more then 8 hours ago.

10:19pm-
Austin called to welcome me back to the city and say he's genuinely missed me.
Ok. I have one friend here.

10:51pm- Feels like 3 in the morning-
Sitting here in my living room with soft music and a candle burning trying to remember how to work this minute journal thing...

UPDATE:

I updated my iPhone to the new firmware (it told me too!) and now my notes dont save.
So taking notes isnt as easy as it used to be- i actually have to have a notebook AND a pen- and I've been a little lazy about it.
And since i usually just sent those notes straight here, the process is a much more lengthier one. Also, I've been staying busy writing a script for a mystery mini-series, writing letters to important people and coloring characters for a movie website, so my time is being absorbed by those things.
But, dont worry, the strange habit of taking notes at random is still a habit. You just dont get to see em. The No iPhone thing just really throws things off. (i lerned im actulie a teribel speler!!?)
Not to worry though, nothing to exciting has been happening.
I'll be sure to let you Know when something comes up though.

hang in there all you readers. (Mom and Tiff.)
I'll see you soon.

7/4/10

"I was trying to daydream, but my mind kept wandering."
~Steven Wright

5:47pm-
By the time I got up and made coffee i got a text from Courtney to come watch fireworks with them.

7:48pm-
On someones roof eating burgers with Courtney and Kat.

8:56pm-
We all walk down the street to someone elses house. The 'tallest roof in Brooklyn' to watch fireworks. All 25-30 of us.

9:20pm-
I talked to a girl from Wisconsin-
She was a foot taller than me.
I made fun of her accent.
I told her (joking!) that I'm from Texas so I'm not afraid to hit women.
She sat suspiciously close on the roof during the fireworks. Courtney and Kat said she was interested.
I blamed my dad.

7/3/10

"It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards."
~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

4:01pm-
Heading to Austins house in Brooklyn to talk about a web/mini series we want to make.

5:50pm-
Sitting on the fire escape overlooking the city talking about characters and sub plots.
This could be good.

8:04pm-
The four of us (a room mate and a friend) walk through Bedford looking for a place to eat.

10:32pm-
One of the roommates knows a guy in a band thats playing in the city. So were Heading to the lower east side for a show.

UPDATE:
Not so much a band, as a guy with a guitar.

2:47am-
Home. Noticed that my notes app is having problems saving notes..?!!!
I lost from 10:30 to now... If I can't count on this, THEN what..???

its ok. nothing that interesting happened.

7/2/10

No road is long with good company.
~ Proverb

11:11am-
Raggedy old man in subway starts singing amazing grace for money.
He was pretty good. Sounded like michael Jackson.

2:01pm-
At a calendar photo shoot. Naked model covered in 'cotton candy'. Standing in the back of the room talking to Austin about a web series project we want to start.

3:51pm-
Neil said walked into a room talking to someone and said 'ok, that's perfect'.
And instantly, with out even knowing what was going on, Joe turned around and said 'what do YOU know about perfection!!?'

5:04pm-
Just realized that what I'm doing for school right now is walking around with no shoes on, eating pizza, waiting for a model to get made up.

6:56pm-
All the interns (four of us today) are heading to the roof to smoke.
Half of us don't smoke.
And now I remember why.

8:53pm-
In line with Kristen, about to go on a roof for a screening of some short films.
Rooftopfilms.com

12:01am-
Free drinks after the screenings...?
Coke and rum..?
ok.

UPDATE:
By 12:30 our conversation that had started at siblings and sesame street had somehow come to heaven, dying and now our parents sex lives.

Almost 2am-
We decided to get food.
At union square looking for Mexican.

UPDATE:
decided that that wouldn't happen (especially at this hour) and walked to a diner in time square.

3:41am-
Kristen found out Ive never hailed a cab and made me get her one.
Did it.

7/1/10

"Constant use will not wear ragged the fabric of friendship."
~Dorothy Parker

4:49pm-
Lucas invited me to go with him and Nolen and other people to eat at some family style restaurant.

7:07pm-
Met shay in front of the place.

8:02pm-
Nolen: "I had a dream....!"
Shay: "oh! You were in an orange car... And your boyfriend was dressed like a banana... And I came up.........."

8:04pm-
"And you said- 'orange car you glad your boyfriend isn't dressed like a banana...?!'"

10:38pm-
A big Italian dinner split between 10 people. Fun and funny things.

11:01pm-
Shay and I are on the wrong side of the subway stop.
'that's our bus!'
We run up the steps and across to the other side just in time to catch the train.

6/30/10

"TALK THINGS OUT"

It's Collin, Courtney and kristens birthday today.

1:10pm-
I planned to get up at 7, but I accidentally stayed up until after 5 am editing a video. Only to turn out I don't like it.
It LOOKS good though. And it works. The sound could use a little more attention, but I don't like the idea of it.
I shot it, cut it, colored it and added enough sound to make it complete in one morning and one night.
Getting there.
Anyway- I'm getting up now.
Gotta go shopping for something for Kristen. It's her party tonight.

4:39pm-
Got her a broken necklace that I'm pulling apart and making into a better necklace.
And she doesn't own scissors. And we kept needing scissors when we were over there. I found a pair of childrens scissors that look like the firs pair that I ever remember using- little ones with orange handles.
Happy birthday.

9:06pm-
At the park- It's so crowded! But I fiiinaally found where they were. A few spread out blankets and a lot of food and people. There were probly close to 20-25 people that came cause it was her birthday...!?
But now its dark and were running down to the water cause the Fireworks are starting!! and the trees are in the way.

10:49pm-
Funny guy. Don't remember his name. But I know he was ACTUALLY funny cause I couldn't stop for real laughing.

11:55pm-
A girl (woman, Cause i think she's older) asked for my number..
She's a part of the party...!?

12:00am-
Apparently it is officially Canada day.
Funny Guy started singing the Canadian anthem. Stood up and get singing. Started marching and singing louder.
Finally singing loud to the people and asking people to join him.
No one did.
But it was really funny how enthusiastic he was.

12:49am-
I said I'd come in for a minute.

3:01am-
I think I should start an audio journal like Louis Armstrong did. My phone can record and it'd be good when I have a long walk and need to talk things out.

I like being the real me with people. I like when they do the same.

6/29/10

"GOOD JUST GOT BETTER"

11:36pm-
Got up. Finally.

3:42pm-
Drank an energy coffee drink and made a video with my camera- adjusting all the functions to make it how I wanted it MANUELY...
I'll (hopefully) put it together tonight.

5:46pm-
About to meet shay, Nolen and Lucas at a park to listen to a Passion Pit concert. From outside the fence.. Still excited!!

7:58pm-
Sitting in th grass, shoes off, cool breeze... And the weather is actually pretty nice and cool.
I feel like if I had some beer and/or drugs I could invite the 80's version of my parents.

UPDATE:
just heard a familiar song-
TOKYO POLICE CLUB IS PLAYING!?!
Everything good just got better.
This DIET drink Nolen brought me doesn't even bother me that much.

8:46pm-
Just saw a firefly.....
How weeiird that they're real things..?!
Seems like some fairytale creature..